Jamalia Legington.... We were best friends in Primary School. I could barely remember what she looks like.... we were friends for make be a year then she left the country.  It doesn't matter if she can't remember me...but i'd love to know how she's doing and i do wish her.... the good memories she has created in my life bestowed upon her in her own memorable way!

I had the weirdest of dreams last night. It still has me a bit spooked. I went to bed sleeping in the opposite direction. I opened my eyes atleast i thought i did and a being was over me holding down my hands. I tried to scream out but i couldn't hear my voice

 My throat felt like a wide river sucking in emptiness and blackness everywhere. My mom was sleeping next to me and i tried shaking her and she wouldn't wake. I looked straight up to the wall and the reflection of the light clock showed it was 11:39pm then it all stopped except for my voice.

I woke up again in the same position except for the being, i tried putting on the lights but it was all black and the switches didn't work. It was freaking me out so i was determine to sleep in the normal direction so i'd know when i wake that it wasn't a dream and i could distinguish between reality and subconscious.

Then it happened again i got up in the same direction that i felt to sleep with in the start and i knew that i had turned or atleast i was dreaming that i was dreaming. I took a deep breath and saw that it was 12:05am. It all felt real so real that i couldn't tell the difference.

I wish i didn't have sex....it complicates things!

I think i need to change my ability for always wanting more for others... I need to accept the things that i cannot change and allow others to do the same!

Its no longer important whether everyone loves me or not...its more importantly for me to love others. A true sense of compassion is loving as the greatest act of giving myself in a way that cannot be measured.